What is love?
Love is when your always smiling.
Love is when you'd take a shot in the heart for them.
Love is not knowing why, but knowing its for them.
Love is when you give it all up.
Love is getting through a fight.
Love is not letting that fight ruin things.
Love is not understanding.
Love is you saying you will never leave.
Love is you walking away.
Love is wanting you back
Love is chasing after you.
Love is knowing you never meant it.
Love is when you just cant take it.
Love is apologies.
Love is making up.
Love is dating for years and still ,
Love is wanting more.
Love is being lied to.
Love is hurt.
Love is pain.
Love is not wanting to leave.
Love is being forced to.
Love is having them laugh at you.
Love is having nothing.
Love is crying.
Love is whipping away your tears.
Love is never understanding.


Love to me is looking into someones eyes and just knowing that at any minute it can all be taken away and as that little tear rolls down your face, you smile and know you have no regrets and you would cherish that one moment, for the rest of your life. Love to me is enjoying every single detail, the smell of the flowers along the path of your sunset walk together, remembering the birds whistling those soft tunes as you giggle and smile at what was, what is and what could continue to be. Love to me is going beyond your limits and making more of an effort, not as if it was a competition, but more as if you need to put your all into it to survive. Love is looking at every single curve, every single freckle, every single wrinkle in their face and knowing your looking at perfection. Love has no shame, Love does not need to change, Love does not need a break, its a full time job and I will love every single minute of it.

this year;
a year of crazy whirlwinds, and total 360s.
a year of old friend bonding, and new friends made,
a year of boozing away every tear, and then laughing about it later,
a year of the best memories ever, although some of them may have been lost inside a vodka bottle,
a year of finding who my true friends are,
a year of making the most amazing new friendships thanks to the shittiest old boys,
a year of realizing that i can be in a relationship,
a year of realizing that i do adore being single, a lot more,
a year of late nights, late mornings,
a year of all nighters,
a year of get togethers with twenty of your closest friends,
a year of being "that girl,"
a year of not coming home on time,
a year of not coming home at all,
a year of paying consequences,
a year of learning how to maneuver your way around those consequences,
a year of absolute shit disturbing to the maximum,
a year of not giving a shit,
a year of letting go of inhibitions,
a year of finding out that imperfections are what make life truly perfect,
a year of being best friends with the same person for the fifth consecutive year,
a year of shady boys,
a year of awesome boys steering you clear of the shady ones,
a year of eating sushi like its my fucking job,
a year of swearing profusely... and not giving a fuck,
a year of figuring out that i can talk myself into anything,
a year of learning that no matter what, i can convince myself that what i'm doing is the right thing.
a year of sloppiness.
a year of finding people that share that sloppiness.
a year of revelations,
a year of realizing that no matter how hard i fuck up, i will still always have fun,
a year of realizing that my girls mean the universe to me,
a year of realizing that male figures do not last, but do provide lasting entertainment,
a year of being bold,
a year of being daring,
a year of taking chances,
a year of being myself,
a year i will always remember.


2009
you are a year i will never forget,
you are the end of my very first decade.




thank you everyone for being a part of this year,
new friends and old friends;
you are what made it worthwhile, and extremely noteable.
i can safely say this has been one of the best years ever!