I'm sitting here all by myself, just tryin to think of something to do, trying to think of something, anything, just to keep me from thinking of you

one thought of you is all it takes, to leave the rest of the world behind

well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did, and I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did

and I didn't mean to meet you then, we were just kids

and I didn't mean to give you chills, the way that I kiss

and I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did, and you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did

i place your hands in mine, i feel your warmth,
your heartbeat, your love as it dances off the tips of your fingers.
your smile is brief but assuring, i love the sweet spices in your voice.

how longs it been? the time escapes me.

"may you never steal, lie or cheat
but if you must steal; then steal away my sorrows,
if you must lie; lie with me all the nights of my life
& if you must cheat, then please cheat death
because i couldn't live a day without you. "

we have all strayed so far from ourselves,
that its really becoming hard to tell who's genuine, and who's faulty.
in a society that demands we act a certain way,
we swallow our pride,
we hide our emotions,
we shy away from the slightest glimpse of love,
and we fear every chance at greatness...
how do we know what is real?
when girls force themselves to become bitter,
cynical, and scheming at most,
where every word a boy says must be interpreted,
analyzed, cryptically criticized,
until we come up with a response that shies so far away
from what we wanted to say,
it ends up a simply game;
we mean one thing, but say another,
because how dare we speak honestly...
when boys may love, may feel, may experience emotion;
but they go with the mainstream,
become heart breakers, cheats, liars,
and individuals who simply cannot express themselves;
so much so, that even they cannot look themselves in the mirror
without seeing the same person that every male now sees.
its hard to live in a place,
where every step you make,
and every word you say;
you lose a little bit of yourself,
and become a little bit more icy.




step aside from ignorance.
step aside from conformity.
step aside from this "wheeling" mentality.
step aside from bitterness, reprehension, cynicism.
step aside from games.
step aside from uniform opinions.
enter the real world: a place for real thoughts, real feelings, and real people.

I keep looking in all the places,
where you are supposed to be.
But I never seem to find you,
and you're all I long to see.

I just can't seem to understand,
what it was that changed your mind.
All this time I thought I knew you,
when really, I was blind.

But know that I do not hate you,
and I know I never will.
Because I cared about you then,
and I care about you still.

Even though you hurt me,
I can't seem to let you go.
But I will go on without you,
and I want to make sure you know.

It will take some time to mend,
the damage that you've done.
But broken hearts do heal,
that's where strength comes from.

For now, the tears may be falling,
and my thoughts keep circling to you.
But soon, things will get better,
if you have hope, then they always do.

I never though I'd find myself
the day that I found you.
Plans for only
one of me
a future plans for
two.
Soul mates in this universe
that make the world surreal.
For when I've given up on dreams
you showed me love is real.
And now that all my love for you
will never cease to grow,
please take me in your loving arms
and never let me go.

You're the thought that starts each morning,
the conclusion to each day.
You are in all that i do,
and everything i say.

You're the smile on my face,
the twinkle in my eye.
The warmth inside my heart,
the wholeness in my life.

You're the hand that's laced in mine,
the coat upon my back.
My friend, my love,
my shoulder that's so dear.

You're my silly, mature, caring,
thoughtful, bright and honest guy.
The one who holds me tightly,
when i need to cry.

You're the dimple in my cheek,
the ever-constant tingle in my soul.
The voice that makes me weak,
the happiness in my life.

you are all I've wanted,
you are all I need.
you are all I've dreamed of,
you are all of this to me.