suppose you never loved anyone fully, would you be protecting your heart truly? Suppose we put love and protection into colours and shades, would protection be black and white, for it is so easy, there is only one shade it creates grey, there are no changes for a colour you didn't expect.
However, would this entitle love to be the other colours, some bright and some dark & would it not be fitting for love to be colours, because sometimes when two colours mix, you don't know what to expect this is much like emotions and maybe, just maybe, could you mix the shades and colours together, as being a bit careful but also allowing another into your heart, creating a shade and a colour, like a pastel. Pastel, yes a miz of giving your heart to another and yet keeping the few peices of it so if it ends or when it ends, you have the power to move on, but then would you never truely experince the vivd, bright, sparkling colour that is in theory, love? Would you rather risk your heart, you sanity, your feelings for a chance to see the world of colour, or would you rather never, never be hurt and stay sane, keeper of your own emotions? But would you stay sane in a world that consisted of three shades would you not get a headache from the colours all the time? and is so, would you pull away from love? Or if you dove into the colour and yet somehow maged to get back to black and white unwillingly would that bring you furthur into insanity?

don't waste another day, just you and me tonight.

today I realized three things.

1. I never needed anyone, I'm fine by myself, I just choose not to be. I'm too busy trying to be independant I don't realize that I always have been, I don't depend my happiness on other people.

2. You've always been a peice of shit and a waste of time, I wasted so much time waiting for you when I could have been moving on with my life, I'm so happy I have. I realized that because of you I will never make any mistakes with my relationships anymore. Thank you, really you fake bullshitter.

3. I'm so in love its crazy, I'm happy and nothing will ever change how I feel now, I'm alive, I'm free and I'm young, nothing can really stop me right now. The world won't stop for me to pick up my life, I'm going to keep walking and moving forward, hopefully with you.

Life changing.

its your fault you know, you took two steps back.
i was moving forward and you didn't react.
i miss the old you, when things were just fine.
boyfriend or not, i wanted you to be mine.